Friday, December 4, 2009

I Wish

Today I updated my status on facebook asking for a moment of silence for the motherboard of my seven year old laptop.
While it will still turn on and has stretches of minutes at a time before kicking me off the internet or blinding my eyes with the blue screen of death, said motherboard is dying and by the time I pick it up from Agent Anderson at the Geek Squad, she may be completely dead.
As I am wont to do, I expected immediate funny condolences from friends who would find my recent loss amusing or even slightly sad (I mean, it is a computer not a friend or family member!) After ten minutes of NOTHING, I have taken the status down and replaced it with "I Wish."
Because, I wish - unrealistically, that it would last another four years, that I had been able to keep my job for another four months (because that was how on track we had been to be out of debt!), that I had not suffered from oversharing at the Relief Society party Tuesday night, that I could give my children the Christmas that they want (and deserve), that I could afford to help out some of the people I care about who need it financially, that I could live closer to my dad, that I hadn't driven into the Patrick Henry parking lot yesterday, that I would remember to do all of the things I need to do and then do them, that I wasn't feeling so sad today.

3 comments:

Natalie | The Bobby Pin said...

Oh babe, love you. I wish you didn't lose your job either! That sucked! I don't understand why things happen.

I hope you could get a hug and be happy though!

collin said...

I will be praying for you today Ann. Grace be with you in difficult time.

Collin

collin said...

I will be praying for you today Ann. Grace be with you in difficult time.

Collin